"LONGING FOR A STRANGER"
It around 1st week of jan,i was feeling kinda bored...so went to the cyber cafe n started surfing net.well it was always the same sites...like wavemag.com.np,hi5.com something like tht.so thought of entering the chat room.various people frm various place..but the one thing they had in common was...ALL OF THEM WERE NEPALESE..!had introduction wid few people...some came n talked for few secs,some for little long....people entered chat room wid different intensions...some to get refreshed after long hours of work..some to get rid of their loneliness in the midnite...some to make new frens,to interact wid new people,n some to have fun...!though they had different situations but all of them wanna chat in some way or the other.for me,it was to get out or my boredom,well introduced with people,it was easy to get along with people over there coz we used our own nepali language in chat room too!the thing was goin' on same like for an hr or so...i was not yet to get back to my apartment!
among the chatters,i felt one guy juz got to be so close within those hours...but i dont remember so much on wht topic we had chat that day...but we had some wht!it was grt...!after some time i returned back to my room..leaving tht stranger in his world.things went on like tht for few dayz..almost everyday i visited cafe...either to check my mails or for some other reason but everyday i had some excuse of visiting the cafe.n ya...no matter i had limited time i used to enter chat room once even for 5 mins or so..may be i was kinda addicted to that.but the main thing to be noticed was..everyt time i entered the room there used to be this guy wid whom i had a chat few dayz back...so we used to chat n was used to each other...there was hi/hello...how r ya..how was ur day n all!well it was kinda fun knowing a new people.
after somedayz...he asked me for my pic....but like how cud a gal send her pic juz like tht to an unknown guy..u neva know how the person is..!so we exchanged our id tht day..n ya after a day i added him to my frens list in hi5.so this way he got to see my pic...but unlucky me tht he hadnt put his pic in his hi5.well even though i didnt ask him for his pic...thought if he feels like sending it he will send it himself.things on went like this for several months.we got to exchange our phone number.n calling each other had been a part of our life withing those time.though i admit most of the time it was him calling me...getting preferance of being a gal..haha!slowly we started spending hours of time talking to each other ..since midnite to the morning sometimes...so tht there wont be anyone to disturb us.sometimes it was like...hard for me to get up to go to my class..n same was for him..it was hard to him to get up to get to his work...inspite of these difficulties also..we never quit calling but it was incrasing day by day!we talked about sevaral stuffs...homes,hobbies,likes,dislikes,politics haha,,n all!it always felt so gud whnever i used to talk to him....after ma long school hours.he seems to be so caring..may be becoz i was in foreingn land...n it feels so grt to find a person who cares abt u ..especially when ur aways from ur home!may be it was same for him too....dunno...as he was also aways from home!time passed away....we got closer n closer.we even knew each others dialogues...after what wht is gonna come n all!
i used to get back to my home every year during my summer vacation...but while being wid my family also...i gave "us" enough time.it was like chatting through out the night!slowly dunno when we fell for each other..we started each other seeing the part of our dream.it was really hard to imagine ownself widout each other.thinking how would it be...wid out HIM!amazing...how can you u put someone u neva met in your dream.how can he ther part of this.
whnever i see my frens being wid their bf...i too wish he cud be here wid me holding my hands..!ahhh reality seems to be so different here...!though we try hard to accept our situation...but it all goes in vain.i remember many times when i cried whole nite on phone...may be i m kinda emotional being a gal..i know though he feels the same way but juz doesnt express it!every single day ,every single moment we miss each other but time is not ours now...!only in chat n on phone we can be there for each other but cannot have our physical presence.have seen many lovers getting separated after long years of relationship...but wht do i say abt this one...where lovers havent meet even once?we talk ,we fight,like other love birds...we share ,we care...n we luv ..!
may be luv is not only abt getting.dunno when will we be able to see each other...whn the time will permit us....!may be we will meet n be together for rest of our life...or we might juz get chance to see each other...or we might not be able to see even for once despite of our luv!may life wont turn out the way we want it to be..!all we can make is effort n pray to god...for our meeting!but it is strange tht u can even fall for someone through internet.i n so grateful to this science of technology...if it was not there then we wud have neva met.
i know like me many people might be goin' through same pain...!but we juz can hope for the best..!all we can do is wait for the rite time.i dunno did i make any sense here or not...but i hope u guyz got some of it!thanx for ur valuable time!
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