we all know how 'moody' we can be, all the time, sometimes even with seemingly extreme mood-swings!
but we've heard people around us, especially the practical-minded ones, told us to "be positive! stay optimis! be upbeat! be energetic! you gotta be ACTIVE, not passive, and look & grasp every single little opportunity that you can find!" etc etc, whether it mostly would involve in seeking big money, big profits, or big opportunities! (maybe it's also because people kept looking at me as a 'passive' prson who spent too much on thinking, but lack (or lazy) in doing, or 'pushing forward', or materializing on something).

but I , for one, sometimes kinda 'despise' that idea, even thinking that "it is just NOT me" , to be able to stay positive & active like that all the time.
furthermore, to me, it seems like a fake 'positivism' when one don't want to feel happy, excited, or active. why faking it?
why can't we just be depressed, and DON'T have to stay/keep upbeat & active all the time, "like those succesfull people out there", that's what those practical-minded people keep telling me all the time..
yeah, that's easy when you already get succesful , maybe. but for a person like me, who's at the wrong job, and when i'm endeavor in something, it still hasn't materialized as i've thought/expected, in fact, it's rather dissapointing and not according to what i want..then i don't see 'why' i have to stay positive, upbeat, energetic, with face shining everyday.
in fact, if given a choice, i just want to be dead, and just leave this money-oriented world, where everything seems to be appreciated mostly on the level of "how much money & connections you get" , and that's what matters in this physical,material world!

can anyone relate with what i'm saying here?
do we really need to stay "positive" all the time, in order to progress in ANYthing, in this material,physical world? especiall if we want to be so-called 'succesful' in this worldy's standard ?

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