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astitwa.com http://astitwa.com/updates/august_relationship.php A relation waiting for identification | Tuesday, August 16, 2005
- By Raj
This is a story about my love. Love, a wonderful feeling within oneself, felt for the special person. I was falling into love for the first time, and falling into such beautiful relation made me feel like I was in the seventh heaven. But unfortunately it could neither be recognized nor identified. My love remained unidentified. I could not give it a name.
The ever first love I met was through internet. We started to have chats over internet. Gradually, the friendly conversations over chats led us into a deep relation of love, sharing secrets of each other. The same old keyboard turned sensitive to me, which I had been using since a year. Each and every key that I used to strike hard was get getting softer. The computer screen, which I always kept on use from sunrise to sunset turned out to be like the lovely face. Whenever, I used to chat with her over internet, I felt like she is sitting in front of me. Tears ran down from my eyes when I ever felt that she is sad and revealing her pain to me. I used to smile, laugh and even cry with her talks whenever she used to share her joys and sorrows with me. I did not even care what other used to feel regarding my relation. But it was all very pure and real for me. My heart used to beat with the every word of her and with all promises we were doing together.
We shared a very understanding relation having a very strong faith on each other and a deep intimacy for each other. Love need not be expressed or felt by seeing each other in real. For us, the heart itself spoke the feeling for love and we never asked for our pictures. Being honest, I neither saw her in my real life nor her picture. But I see her in my fantasy, whenever I close my eyes I can visualize her beautiful face in my mind. I hoped that she might feel the same way. We even had some conversations over phone but we never ever met in real. We planned to meet after we establish our career. We even decided of getting married the very first day of our visit. Together we used to plan our future living style, the number of kids we would have..haha?and all those stuffs that any couple do with the new charms of love. I even talked regarding our relationship with my family and she did the same. All of sudden, a violent storm brought a drastic change and the never ending bond called love was shattered into pieces. She had to leave me because of her family pressures. I could do nothing to make our relationship survive. With the tears in my eyes, I wished her the best for her future. I am sure she might have feel the same pain I was going through. My love could not lead to the smooth road in this life. It took more than a year for my pain to be healed and I started adjusting to my normal life.
Today, whenever I think of her, I still feel the same love for her. But people have various opinions for this relation, so called love. Whenever I shared my feelings regarding her with anyone around, they said it was not the real love, it was a virtual love. But I put a question to them, how can love be virtual? Whenever one is in love, is it necessary to see each other physically? I understand that people find it hard to believe that love can be true and real until and unless we see each other. If anyone believes in true love then one should also believe that love has no boundaries, I mean one can fall in love with anyone, anytime, and anywhere without even knowing each other.
Yes, my love affair has no identification and no recognition as well. I listen to all my friend?s love problems, their pain and suggest them the best I can. But I have no one to listen to me because my friends find it very illogical saying there is no such love existing in reality through internet. It is a Virtual love and one must meet the person, s/he loves. Though, I could never convince my friends that it was my true love, it is going to be the reality of my life.
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