STATE OF MIND
Christina....she is the girl i ve been dating lately. Bit chubby but very cute lady in her mid 20s whom i met in some random party few months ago. She is having some abnormal activities in ther private part ever since we had unprotected sex last time and she insisted both of us to have a HIV and other STD's test. I thought its a good thing to do and to be on a safer side and went to the clinic nearby for the tests. I had never done any kind of blood and STD tests before and i always beleived that i am free of these things though i knew that i have had unprotected sex with some girls in the recent past but as i entered the clinic i was in two minds. Should i go for it or should i not?. some kind of fear came over me as i entered the clinic..what if sth really serious shows up in test report ?
"May i help you" the receptionist asked.
with some courage, unwillingly i replied," I would like to have a blood test for HIV and other STD's "
"You can do the test today but the report will be ready after two weeks. if there is sth serious we will call you." the receptionist said.
I agreed with that and he asked me to seat in the waiting area to wait for my name to be called for the tests.
As i took a seat my heart stated to pound rapidly and all those fears came across my mind. In a TV screen near to the waiting area was playing some weird videos of people having unprotected sex and suffered from HIV and other STD's. That added fuel in my fear and i bean to think of all the girls i had sex with.
Nicole, I met her almost two years back in some party. After some months of dating we had a sex. She frankly mentioned in our first sex that it was not her first sex. We had unprotected sex few time before we broke up in a mutual understanding. after judging her i can say she might have had sex with 3 guys atleast. out of nowhere i began to ask myself ,"was she safe"?
Few months after the break up with Nicole, I met this girl named Kathy. I met her thru some dating website and in ur first date we ended having unprotected sex. She was one hell of a bitch. I still ve the scar she left me on my back that she made with her sharp and long nails. After two meetings i stopped seeing her as she was asking for something different relationship than what i was looking for. She seemed to me as one of those girls who has tasted so many different guys. If sth serious comes up in a test, i actually made a decision to call her in a first place.
Some weeks later I met another girl thru the same dating website. Her name is Dais, Lil chubby but really good love maker and on top of that a very caring and a nice girl. She broke up with his long term BF before having an affair with me. It took some months for us to have our first sex as she wasn't ready after her break up. We had good protected sex for some months but after that we had unprotected sex few times. She could be free of all kind of STD's but when you are in this situation you will suspect everyone to be the potential threats.
While i was having an affair with Daisy, I started having another affair with a very busy professional girl. Sophia, a very beautiful and independant but very busy girl but no matter how busy she was, she still used to manage time for us. For me. she is the horniest girl that i ve ever met and ever made love with. She always used to turn me on by sending pics of her private parts......Morning, Noon, Evening, Night..u name it. We always used to talk freely about sex and shared our past sex experiences. She told me so many stories of how she was being cheated by different guys. It could be her who is unsafe.
I could not stop thinking of all those horror stories of HIV and other STD's as i waited for my turn. A tiny mistake could turn my life into hell and was getting more nervous. I started praying to all gods that i can remember asking for good test results. Finally i heard my name announced. I did my prayers and headed towards the room where the doctors were waiting to take my blood.
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