With approaching date to declare a republic, citizens have become more unsecured about the country's future. After a so called victory, even the rats here in Sajha became the dog and started barking, then what to expect back home. They have been intimidating people when they themselves were unsecured, now they are the victorious demons what to hope.

They voted maoists. Be it be a fear factor or whatever, it was their fault. They voted for maoist and they will suffer and they have to. I am not gonna carve for their freeday. I am crank today. Yes, I am. Yes I am. Many Ram Hari shrestha died in so called peoples war. I don't have counts of how many killed from which side and I don't care as handful of Pedants and few kiddos do here. It has been my misery that I can't help. I was just the dumbfounded looser when insane nepali were playing in the bloodshed of fellow citizen. I had thought and even praised for their courage to bring down maoist to mainstream when 12 points agreement was written.
I had never expected Nepali people would encourage the YCL intimidation and PLA insanity by voting them to the lead. They did and they will suffer. I promise, my tears are expensive enough, I would not let them go worthless. I would not cry. Why the hell is there a strike, to get country more down, to let others suffer? why the hell is their a rally? My countrymen, you voted them and licensed their killing. You killed Ram Hari Shrestha. Then why is there one more PLAY?

Royalist, get the hell out of there. Even Gyane is no good. Monarchy in Nepal always served few families that' it. Countrymen always protected their monarch and in turn their ass was kicked. Moreover, Gyane is not a legal. Gyane ended monarchy the day he formulated a plan to swipe the entire family of his brother.

Parties, SOBs, you put the barrel in forehead of my countrymen. When this murdered started so called people's war,you were focused on the way of looting country.

I am not a weirdo, I am a crank, a frustrated. I wonder, why these people can't fight against Maoist. We need a people's war against this instability and insecurity in the country. We need to escape out these crap, Maoist, Gyane and Parties. We need our own Party, where we can stand united, where we will serve ourselves and get rid of slavery. I know, this never gonna happen in my country where people support certain ideology just to get some direct or indirect benefit.

I am deep in trouble today. I am going crazy. But I won't cry. My head is full. I am about to burst. I am not happy at all. All my countrymen are Dead.

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