Today, all of a sudden my GF called me to share one of the scandalous messages “Darling, we cant be together anymore†I was totally dumfounded that gave me sudden jerk. Well, it’s been a long relationship for about almost 2 years. Honestly speaking, at the outset, I took it as a fun affiliation; on the contrary, she was utterly drenched with my love.
slowly but surely, I just took it for granted and met her when I needed. On the other hand, she used to call 10 times a day and sending countless messages which I hardly replied with real curiosity. Lucky, I was to be her first Boy Friend. Though we live in same city we meet hardly once or twice a week all because of my hectic schedule and some other things. She had always time for me, yes always.
Whenever, we met she strike a chord me how much she loves and how her life has been complete after my ingress. “Honey, You are my Prince†She whispered many times kissing me tightly. After few 5-6 months I got jaded with her as I really did not like her as a Girl Friend, she was different, unique, tall, blonde and average looking girl. But I do not know why she did not attract me that much.
However, things went on, I thought of ending relationship many times in between but I just assured myself “Man, there is nothing to loseâ€. During our relationship I spent few months abroad, and as traveling being my biggest passion, I made short trip around nearby countries though I always ran out of money. (Surprisingly, I never missed her in those trips, she mailed me everyday with everything she did from morning to evening). Bastard, I was, I did not carry even a postcard that barely costs a euro. She never grumbled anything, all she needed was me and my company and love.
Then finally, I had to go to another continent for my study purpose for one semester “I unofficially ended the relationship from my side and finally excused her for not being so loyal to her, I admitted I could have been a better boy friend. At that time, I felt sorry for her and all the troubles I poured upon her.
Then after spending a semester I again came back and she was there to welcome me with open arms. My feelings were same for her. We met like before and so on and on. Slowly I started loving her, I wanted to spend more time with her….I enjoyed being with her….which obviously she liked a lot.
And suddenly she said she can’t be with me anymore coz she thought we r totally different and she is still puzzled if I am right person for her. When she divulged this yesterday I realized how much I liked her, I was about to burst into tears. I never expected such bitter news from her. I know it’s my entire fault not to take it seriously, similarly I am damn sure not to stay in that country for long where she wd love to spend her whole life, Marriage was not in our card (Neither mine nor her).
If so, why I am so much worried now? Is it ego problem or a MAN thing? Today I wrote her a very long email (perhaps the longest) and we exchanged 20 SMSs. It seems she had absolutely determined to walk away from my life. I started feeling her absence right from that moment and I am begging for her love now. Never in my wildest imagination, I thought I would do that but I am dying to meet her now and to express everything. But she kept on repeating, we r very different to each other, she had seen me long and its time we drive different lanes. But she is still in dilemma and , she had not yet revealed we wr BROKEN UP. Then we r meeting finally to decide about this thing and spending a night together in her apartment, that could be the last night or …..I do not know…..I still have chance….Dear friend,s please tell me what should I do??????
Is it only my EGO that does not allow her to go or is this real love? I cant figure out anything.., I’m also not certain if I can change her mind….or Should I let her go her own away, time will heal everything, what I should I say…..how should we act?? I don’t know….what will happen if we re established our relationship? Can I change myself? I have no IDEA friends………………Im just f’*** up but one thing is sure I LOVE HER.
(She is 20 years, European, a college student, better looking than me with European Standard height)
Just now I wrote her SMS
My princess, I will love you till the end of time Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you Let me die in your arms with you-
Dear, Hankhora, scorpiogirl, ghundruk ko jhol, number, born_to_rule, Cerine AND namaskaar thanks a lot for being so supportive and dropping nice words!!! iM REALLY grateful to all of you. Will get back soo.
____________FROM MY WINDOW____________ When it was snowing heavily, the lousy evening I was just alone missing somebody very badly, Took few snaps from my Verendah,
गोरेटो अनि उस्तै छ गल्लि कतै तिम्रो मन बदलियो कि ?
I could have missed this one if someone didn't remind me to go through it at least! Thanks!
Its perfectly OKAY to be yourself, none needs to change in a relationship. And its perfectly OKAY if you think you are in LOVE after so long years of relationship! Well, in these 2 years, you found HER to be someone who you can spend your life with, and she found YOU as not ? Well, that is justifiable too. I appreciate both of your decisions. Perhaps , she thought she was in love with you for those years and she now marks the differences that you two have.
Will you still accept her, if she comes someday [ a semester break , lets say ] and says: i think i was wrong! We can stay together! or, will you follow advices here and find the so-called "many fishes" in the sea , with whom , you might repeat the same thing in a relationship of about lets say 2 months or 2 years or more ...
I think, there is nothing wrong on your relationship, if you two decide to commit to it. If ONE of you thinks its an END whatsoever! then, perhaps , forgive my harshness , you never loved to commit! some other purposes, there could always be!
Remember, she could be genuinely CORRECT on her decision for her life as well! Respect her decision and move on in your life !!! Someone or even she might be the one : let the time tick along with your heartbeats now! It needs rest! : )
Pakhale yee aakhaa pani, drishyai uhi chha Girl friend Chhute pani धर्ति उहि छ Na sakhchhu ma apnai partibimba chhopna, na sakchhu ma chhati futaa era jodna
Amazing wrote: (......................Florida guy) 'THERE r lots of ADULT gals everywhere. Just make Girl Friend and F.....as much as u want. Its not like Nepal and, there r gals everywhere, in college, in pub, bar, parties, work..... '
After reading this, every single person can understand that why u r dumped by your GF. isn't this clear??????
Why dont you keep your mouth shut? stop making drama Mr. Amazing In Nepali, it is well said, जस्तालाई तस्तै ......ढिडोलाई निस्तै Looks like you are also wearing "three years old भृकुटिमण्डपमा किनेको सर्ट "....
i know its pretty traumatic when shit happens, all the love you have conglomerated gets shattered due to some foolish text thats beeps. man u and i are in the same situation, difference is i had to play a mature act, reason.......she was pretty unsure about whether the love thing was destined right, all the assurance was negated and knowing that it was just a strange feeling she had in her i had to let go her obviously with a heavy heart, because you still feel for her and you dont want a broken heart again both way. so the best thing is to keep numb, respect what ppl decide and damn lifez there, who knows the other side of the lane someone might be noticing you hehehe lala filmy kura dherai bhayo, tara balai bhanera ni nasakine raichha, because whne it hurts it hurts bad tara k garne............bhetinchha bhetinchha la ta adios to the forum keep posting and live life to the fullest...............man jaba samma man chha tutne jodine bhayiranchha kyare
Hankhora bro, thanks a lot for good sayari, I just love shayaris, hope to hear more from you. I hope u just love shayari but not the situation as such.
----------- Scorpiogirl, thanks for nice words, I hope your words come true. Have a great day:-)
--------- Gundruk Ko jhol bro thaks for being so kind, i love your suggestions in typical nepali-hindi style aND yes as u told its definlety not the end of the world ""dis is not da end of the world.....who knows one girl interupted le bhaneko jasto..this might be da best beggining of ur life....look forward and hope for da best......sala pyar main yesa hota hain...kyuki...sala ye pyar bhi aajhib kya word hain.......'PYAR'......uff" -------------
Number dude, sorry to hear abt your tragic story, how did it happen? Dud u try to stop her not? But now Im happy to know that u r in better position, hope u r enjoyin every moment these days but to be honest I know how tough might have been those days for you!! Sorry mate, we live same world.
---------------- born to rule dude, whot do u think? I think its a new beginnig for both of us or may be end of the beginnig as Ceriene suggested.
-------- namaskar bro, what a shayari, just loved it.... ------- Oldmaven bro, good that u found time to go through this thread, im happy that u jot down few words. "forgive my harshness , you never loved to commit! some other purposes, there could always be", ya bro u could be right
--------- Jwaain saap just for you
यो बाटोमा कति काडा कति फुल टिपी हिडी
कति आफ्ना पराइ भेटे कति पराइ आफ्ना भेटे -----------
Manvi dear, I hope u got my email, was waiting for your response...anyway.....Im sorry that my story irritates you, I hope u wont click it anymore..Have a good one :-), u know I dont want to argue in Sajah for no reasons
------ Nepali chhori :-) ---------
"MAN, jaba samma man chha tutne jodine bhayiranchha kyare " well said occult, perhas its always hardest at first time... how do u say? --------
Amazing geez you live so close to me, how old are you again?-- Aznshwatty Hei Azan, I know we live pretty close, I guess I know u very well.....u must be living in one of the areas Barheaven, Kanata or Fallowfield...dont u?? And I also know u dont go to Ottawa U....!! Anyway, see u someday in St Laurents..how is that? at present, though at prestnt im not there...
(If my guess is correct then....all i can say is U have good sense of humour)...
--------namaskar and hankhora bro, it may not be as good as yours but, I just feel like postin it.....
बरबाद करदिया ये जिन्दगि प्यार के नाम पे बेवफा दिया मैने वफाके नाम पे
एसे जख्म दे गयि वह, दवा के नाम पे खुदा भि रो पडा मेरि मोहब्बतके अन्जाम पे
Good riddance for her. And you stop whining here. Drink some milk, grow up and then go for relationships. Don't just go after sex else this is what you will end up with.
Mr Amazing bro.. thanks for loving my saayari :-) and I do understand your feeling. and I have gone through it recently... not even more than 3 months.. the feelin is still fresh but what we need to do is to bury it forever... whatever happen it happens for good. we can't sit back and cry for it. SO move on..........move alone.......... think there is always someone better.......
so here is another saayari for you again ;-) ENJOY !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jigar ka dard sine mein liye ghoom raha hoon Jigar ka dard sine mein liye ghoom raha hoon Chauthi bhi gayi…...ab panchvi dhoond raha hoon...........
Amazing, U deserve a round of cheers already, for u've been so honest to admit ur mistake. we hardly acknowledge our flaw, but u've been so open to let everyone know tht u were the one who knowingly/unknowingly lead ur relationship to whr it is now. Men hardly say I dint give her enough love, they always live feeling high to have given enough attention to their other half. Rarely do we realise tht relationship is always evolving; it is an art which requires constant care and attention. It faces different kinds of challenges everyday which makes it tough to remain the way it began. Both parties needa have equal zeal and commitment for it to flourish. Thr has to be somekind of "LILL" bit of challenge.Perhaps u flooded her with too much of challenges and over the time period her tiny grudges cud have accumulated & made her tough to have unwillingly but finally say 'ENOUGH'. As I said earlier, love is like a sand-u hold it too tight, it slips away; u hold it too loose, it gets blown away.. Perhaps u held it too loose-it got blown away. Ur galfren mite have thought - she's been holding it too tight for just too long... Thr cud have been so many situations which, we, as a 3rd party could understand, but i wont just say MOVE ON coz its hard. At this time when u feel like its the end of the world, the only best thing to do is hang in there. U realised whr u failed. Hope it helps u in shaping a better lover within u. Good LUck n heres a song for ya from all we sajhaite frens.... " tell me whr it hurts.."
it does i can imagine. its much harder than to feel. but there is nothing you can do about it but to live with it, suck it up and live with it. you dont have to blame everything on yourself. at least you were honest and finally realised what she did for you. i am not blaming her either. its the way of life and it suck, you cant make her heart change by beating your heads on the wall or mouring all the time. just think that it was not you but she walked out of your life, and if you were true to your love perhaps she wasnt the lucky girl. or it means you deserve better than her. thank yourself that you arent married with children ..that adds much more complications on top of broken hearts.
cheer up ... dont feel sorry for yourself ..and let her go .. slowly .. it is possible .. but hard.
My princess, I will love you till the end of time Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you Let me die in your arms with you- "
I do not know if you are serious or not...but that is the gayest think I have ever heard...how is she going to respect you when you sound like a desperate shakespeare mawfuuka....get some balls, man...
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